22 Jun 2015
This F*cking Wait
Just like most people I hate waiting.
I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
Especially when I am waiting for answers concerning work possibilities!
I'm currently waiting for a mail (or phone call because some people are malicious like that) on whether or not I will move further in their recruiting process, that is, will I get to go to an face to face interview on site.
The work position is at a game company as a junior level designer. They called me for a short interview while I was at Dreamhack working night shifts, so when they called, I had basically just woken up (let's not mention that I was told they were going to call the next day so it was also a bit early). So there I am, just up from bed and completely unprepared.
So now I am trying to keep myself from turning into a mess and over-analyzing every intonation and thing that I and the interviewer said and what could be turned against me.
Was I wrong in mentioning my long term dream of wanting to work as an art director for games? But I'm pretty sure that I already wrote that in either my cover letter or my CV? Should I have said something else? Does my assignment that I made over throw it, since they said that they liked it/had a positive view of it? If my friend who didn't even know what the position entailed get to go to an interview and I, who studied and really want to work in games don't??
Because yes, I applied this position with a friend. She's really talented, but she doesn't have experience with games and on top of, she has already gotten into one of the harder schools to get into!
Can't I just have this one?
Because frankly, as much as I hope, I don't think I will have a chance at the other game studio that I applied to....
*sigh*
If I only could get that email, then at least my waiting would be over....
21 Dec 2014
10 Dec 2014
Let's talk books! : Unfinished Series
So with the year closing in on it's end I thought it might be fun to check up on all the series that I have started and have yet to finish. This post will most likely be a video later on for my youtube channel.
I think I looked this up, earlier this year and I'm pretty sure there's a bunch of them~
Well lets start in no particular order!
Wheel of Time by Robert Jordan
read 9/14 books
A Song of Ice and Fire by George RR Martin
read 4/6 (so far)
Sirantha Jax by Ann Aguirre
read 3/6 books
The Immortal Series by Cassandra Clare
read 1/6
Apparatus Infernum by Anna Aguirre
read 1/2 (so far)
The Broken empire by Mark Lawrence
read 2/3
Soldiers Son by Robin Hobb
read 0/3 Books
Nightrunner by Linn Flewelling
2/7 (so far)
Gone by Michael Grant
read 2/6 Books
In Death by J.D.Robb
read 4/40 books (seriously long!)
Possession by Elana Johnson
read 1/3
Clockwork Empire by Stephen Harper
read 2/4 (so far)
Tales from Lovecraft middle school by Charles Gilman
read 1/4
Skulduggery Pleasant by Derek Landy
read 3/9
White trash Zombie by Diana Rowland
read 3/4 (so far)
Parasol Protectorate by Gail Carriger
read 3/5
A series of unfortunate events by Lemony Snicket
read 4/13
Half-life trilogy by Sally Green
read 1/?
Englefors by Mats Strandberg and Sara Bergmark Elfgren
read 2/3
Anita Blake by Laurell K Hamilton
read 3/24
The lunar chronicles by Marissa Meyer
read 1/4
As expected there was a number of series I have yet to finish! But in my defence some of them aren't even finished being written so~
But yeah, it was fun seeing how many books I have left in some of them (although there are so many in some of them!!)...
Hopefully I wont start so many series next year, even though it's a bad habit of mine...
7 Dec 2014
Changes, they spring upon you...
So I don't know if it was just a lucky coincidence or a heavy influence of reading Stephen Fry's book "Moab is my washpot", where he writes of how he lamented the process of aging and how the adolescent Stephen, the real Stephen, would be lost in the ever turning wheel of time (see what I did there? you book nerds should!), but I suddenly came to a decision today, that for me feels like a huge change.
What might it be?
Well my friend, I decided....to take out my lip-piercing.
And I feel horrible, like a bit of me is lost and that I am losing myself....which is rather weird and unnecessary, since it's merely a piece of metal through my lip....but damn it I will miss it and I will feel empty.
The reason behind the removal is purely based on the condition of my teeth, or more precisely, the condition of my gums. Sadly it (the labret) must have healed a bit wonky, since a part of it have chafed against my gums, and thus started to lower it to a level that I think is not healthy for my teeth.
So I removed it in hope that my gums will heal to it's former self and then maybe I will be able to pierce my lip again... but yet I feel in my heart that it probably wont happen...
But this means that I will probably get some new piercing...I still want to pierce my tongue and other nose-wing. I am also tempted to get a nose-ring....
Well I bid you goodnight now....feeling a bit lost and mature....
22 Nov 2014
The procastinator life~
So I just woke up.
I'm literately still in bed.
And I can think of a number of things that I should and could do today.
But my main concern is whether or not I should head out and meet up with a friend...
yah...procrastinating much?
I'm quite prone to this, doing something else than I should (granted I am far as bad a friend who started reading webbcomics when she was supposed to write an article about it. I actually wrote the article!)
SO I've read some stuff about this and seen the usual motivational posters. I've reached the point of my procrastination where I think I know where it's coming from. Aka. I kinda of know what triggers it the most.
And that's indecision.
Not having a clear mindset or schedule.
For instance, right now.
Instead of writing this blog, which in my procastinating haze I have not written in or developed or anything. And thus today, when I propably should go up and do something, I lazely decided to stay in bed and write down my feeling. Even if the time is 12.09.
So what are things that I should do? (I'm sort of writing them down to my own benefit).
I should (obviously) get out of bed.
I should tidy my room.
I should change and wash the sheets.
I should update my CV.
I should wash my makeup brushes,
I should message my friend and makeup my mind if I'm joining her at a mall.
I should draw more.
I should work on my webcomic.
I should make a youtube video explaining my absence.
I should make a schedule for drawing, video making and streaming.
I should finish writing the last article!
Then we have the things that I could do...
I could finish reading the manga I have borrowed before they have to be returned.
I could fix my DIY projects
I could read some of the books I have started reading
I could finish playing the episode of Alan Wake that I was on when my computer restarted.
I could go and make breakfast.
I could go and play destiny and try and get more strange coins.
I could read some of the webcomics I've saved but haven't read yet.
I could watch some of the series I'm behind on.
I could back up my files and computer.
So yeah, tons of stuff to do, I have things I SHOULD do but I always end up doing things I could do instead. I need to start deciding what things I am GOING to do that day and then stick to it!
So what am I going to do now?
I am finishing this blogpost, then go up, make some tea and porrige, eat it while watching some series I am behind on and tidy up my room.
26 Oct 2014
19 Oct 2014
Rain, Rain and more Rain
As per usual I kind of forgot the existence of this blog...but I'm sure you who know me through this blog already knew this pretty well.
The knew school, city and friends has taken the most of my attention and I have found myself drawing a lot more than I used to on a daily basis. That is great news considering I want to work with that and I have spent so much time procrastinating that I haven't even taken the time to edit the videos that I have shot for youtube...
I'm actually trying to stay focused on writing this...I just feel like putting it off and pick up the new book I am reading (An Arsène Lupin Omnibus) and just read and watch telly...but that's not very good now is it?
But there has been some things going on which has made it a bit harder to do things like youtube...
One there seems always be someone around and I don't like recording in the presence of other people since it is a bit embarrassing and they don't really know...
Two, the couple that I am living with are breaking up so there's some tension and restrictions (such as I can't play PS3 whenever I want) happening as well. Also I am not quite sure how my living arrangement will end up like after one of them moves out... so that's a bit stressful I am wondering a bit if I should start looking for alternative places to live...which would be sad since I do like living here.
Ugh I also need to look for a part time job. There are so many things I feel like I need to buy (such as a new computer, an macbook, a PS4 a new 3DS, clothes and books) and I don't make anywhere near enough money for it...
But finding work is never easy now is it?
Anyway, as I said the drawing part of my life has gotten better and I hope that I will b able to develop some of my own series into a web comic and find an audience. Maybe then I could start making comission art as well...that would be fun.
Although I need a better computer for that and preferably a second screen...and thus I start dreaming of a own flat with a small studio part in it and a small gaming area....not to mention the books I could start buying...*sigh* it would be so magical...
Oh and on the title of this blog, it has been raining so much this week, like pretty much all day for 4 or 5 days...rather annoying and I need new shoes because the ones I brought down with me are almost in pieces and not waterproof at all.
Okay I'm going to stop rambling and complaining...
I'm thinking of doing a blog-November month, since I didn't do anything of the sort this month.
well see ya later!
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